Its time for Enoch Camp again. I got to say I am real impressed with everyone in the crew this year. The team is Ringo, Ivy, Tommy, Ellie, and Many. This is a group of people who are energetic, fun, easy-going, creative, responsible, serious, and just fun and energyzing to be with. It feels great going into battle with this gang. Today was our third meeting and everyone up to now has truely impressed me. They know when to be serious but also not forget to have some fun. I know with very little guidiance this group will flourish and make a great camp. They will also learn to cherish the experience. Therefore for my role, maybe it is simply to realx sit back and help organize and coordinate the time schedule and the messages. Maybe that is also why I have not been as prepared for meetings as I was last year. Maybe last year was my first time being program chief and therefore I planned to every detail. This year as a second year and with such a talented group, I admit having relaxed alot, maybe even too much. God has put me in this position and so no matter what happens, it is my privilege and responsibility to perform and serve to my best ability. I hope everyone will pray for our team and myself. I hope my friends will pray for my dedication. Pray so I know where to let go and let my team do their magic and  when to step in and give guidiance. GO TEAM 2007.

Wow have not touch this for a while now, but today I feel like I need somewhere to express myself. So here it goes.

My thesis is pulliing close to the end(less I fail at the defence) and after the nervous breakdown last week, I felt into a great depression today. I dont know if I will slip by the defence but am depressed from blaming myself for not having work harder. This thesis was much anticipated for by myself and I wanted to do great in it, to learn new concepts, and be challanged. When it actually occured, I eiter fell lazy or fell to the trap of  thinking "its good enough". Deeper though as I look back to my own history, the downfalls usually come from not firstly and consistently sitting to reevaluate my desires. As a result, I find myself pulled towards other interestes thus failing to focus. Such has been the repeated case in my past and I think I need to work hard to change this behavior or even habit. Often I go through periods of great concentration find myself enjoying while regreting other aspects of life. Avoiding to be pulled apart like this again must require me thus to sit and think about the details of what I want and how I want to live. Have not done that in a while now.

So the questions I must ask myself is where do I want to be in 5 years and how do I want to live. That will likely be the next entry

Just so tired. Not physically but mentally. Just worked a 12 hours day today starting from 7. I think I need to do some excerise to really get my head going. I am sitting here and my brain seems to have escaped me. Need to work out a good sweat